Editor’s note: The author is an observant, conscientious and rational mom. After carefully comparing Dharma with scientific rehabilitation programs, she discovered which had the most significant positive impact on her child’s autism. This presentation is of great value to medical professionals, autistic children’s parents, and anyone who cares about mental health.
Gratitude to the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva!
Gratitude to all Buddhas and Bodhisattvas from ten directions and three periods of time!
Gratitude to the Dharma protectors!
Gratitude to the selfless and altruistic Master Jun Hong Lu!
Gratitude to all the Buddhist practitioners of Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door!
Today, to save all sentient beings, I will learn from the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva to spread Dharma. I will convince sentient beings to practice Buddhism using my experiences. May Guan Yin Bodhisattva bless me and help me turn my propagation into merits and virtues. If there is anything that is not rational or in line with the truth in the presentation, I’d like to seek forgiveness from Bodhisattvas, and my fellow Buddhist practitioners.
Today, with deep gratitude and joy, I announce the good news. My child was diagnosed with developmental delay and high suspicion of autism at 1 year and 8 months. At the ages of 3 and 3.5, he was retested and found to have mild autism. However, at the age of 4, he successfully entered kindergarten, and his communication with other children and teachers became normal. The Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door is true, which saved my child from the autistic abyss. Although he still has some problems, I believe that as long as I adhere to the three Golden Buddhist Practices, he can completely recover and be on the right track!
I came into contact with Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door in 2012 when I was pregnant and had an unexpected miscarriage. I was very depressed. By then, Buddhist practitioner Li came to transform me. She sent me some information about the harms of miscarriage. Although I didn’t believe in it 100%, I thought it wouldn’t hurt to recite some Buddhist scriptures. I started using my commuting time to do my daily recitation and recite Little Houses. At that time, I didn’t intend to read Buddhism in Plain Terms, and I didn’t listen to Master Lu’s recordings. I didn’t want to let my friends know I believed in Buddhism. After reciting Buddhist scriptures for a while, I felt some effects. My allergic rhinitis, which had not been cured for 20 years, had obviously improved. Thus, I continued to recite Buddhist scriptures, and I also released many lives every month.
At the end of 2012, I got pregnant again. My parents came over to care for me. When they realized that I had vowed to be a vegetarian for 2 days a month, they objected to it. They advised me not to be a vegetarian for the sake of the baby. Hence, I violated my vegetarian vow in the latter part of my pregnancy and during breastfeeding. They stewed pigeons and fish in soup from time to time to provide me with “nutritious food”. I foolishly thought this would be healthy for the baby and ate them all. In retrospect, I realized how costly it was to break a vow. I broke my vow and ate meat for my child, so how could the child be well?
Within a month after my child was born, I found out he had an umbilical hernia, a hemangioma, and colic. When he was older than a month, I found out he had severe eczema. When he was 100 days old, he had rotavirus diarrhea. He has diarrhea >10 times a day. He had to be hospitalized and given fluids to recover. In summary, he was in a constant state of discomfort. I started reciting Little House to his karmic creditors, but only a dozen or so until he turned 1 year old.
Just after he turned 1 year old, he got a serious illness – pneumonia. He was hospitalized in our hometown county hospital for 5 days to supply him with fluids, and then recovered and was discharged. We took him to the city hospital for 10 days after his pneumonia relapsed. After that he was released from the hospital, and took antibiotics for a week. His illness relapsed 5 days after stopping the medication. This time, we travelled to the provincial capital hospital to see the outpatient clinic. The doctor said my child is weak and very severe. The doctor wrote a note for my child to get in and admit him to the hospital! On the first day, he breathed >60 times per minute. Oxygen did not help. The nurse drew arterial blood from the base of his thigh to check whether his organs had been affected by oxygen shortage. The arterial blood was dark red. The doctor said that he did not even need to do any tests to determine that the oxygen level in the blood was too low. On the spot, the doctor transferred him to the intensive care unit and gave us a serious illness notice.
I had no choice but to call Dharma practitioner Li for help. She immediately promised to help me release lives early the next morning. She advised me to make a big vow. I moved to the hospital corridor and vowed to the Bodhisattva while crying:
1. Donate money to print 1,000 Buddhist Recitation Collections in 1 month.
2. Perform life liberation every month for my child for the rest of my life.
3. Recite 100 Little Houses for my child in 6 months.
4. Be a vegetarian for 1 year.
5. After my child recovers, I will convince sentient beings to practice Buddhism using his experiences.
After making the vow, I walked back to the hospital room and heard the nurse say that his respiration rates had dropped to about 30 breaths per minute. This meant he didn’t need a ventilator but just continued to take oxygen and observe him. Guan Yin Bodhisattva heard my prayers and manifested! I didn’t dare slack off at night and kept reciting the Great Compassion Mantra for him until the next morning. He didn’t wake up in the morning. Practitioner Li and some enthusiastic practitioners called me. They said they were releasing the lives for my child, and asked me to recite the Buddhist scriptures synchronously. I recited Buddhist scriptures according to the life liberation ritual. Half an hour later, he woke up. He ate apple and porridge. Then he got up in good spirits.
That night before, because my child was in a very bad condition, I called his father while crying. His father took the first flight in the morning. When he saw our child eating in good spirits, he asked me with a puzzled look on his face why I needed him to come back since our child was doing so well. He hadn’t been there for the difficult 10 hours, so he could hardly understand how devastated and helpless I felt at that time. Later on, my child’s test results showed no abnormalities in any organs except the heart. Heart problem was detected the same day when blood was drawn. The next day he recovered miraculously. Even the doctor was shocked. He could be discharged earlier. In this way, he recovered successfully under Bodhisattva’s mercy. I thought everything would be fine after that, but I didn’t realize even greater difficulties were waiting for me.
In April 2015, when he was 1.5 years old, I found that his intellectual development was obviously much slower than that of other children. He didn’t pay much attention to what he was told to do. When he wanted something, he banged his head against the wall if he wasn’t satisfied immediately. I searched the Internet to find out what the problem with banging was. I saw an article that said banging is one of autism’s manifestations. I clicked on it to see how many symptoms were consistent with those described therein. I was so scared that I told my husband. At first, my husband said I was just worrying about it. After he did a search on his own he stopped talking. We immediately made an appointment to take him to the hospital.
On May 4, 2015, we traveled to Fudan Children’s Medical Center, Department of Pediatrics. Test results indicate that his intelligence is only 8 months old, he has a developmental delay of 1 year, and he is highly suspected of autism. The doctor said something that I still remember vividly: “This child will not have a future, so you parents should be prepared for that.” I was in tears on the spot. My child was only 1.5 years old. How could he be judged for the rest of his life?
Unwilling to give up, I sought information online. The more I searched, the more desperate I became. At that time, I really felt there was no way to live. I would cry bitterly at the sight of any child on the road. Then I stopped searching for information and logged on to Master Lu’s blog every day to read His teachings and fellow practitioners’ sharing presentations. I read them over and over again. Then I said to myself, “It doesn’t matter, I still have the Dharma. Since so many practitioners have created miracles through the Dharma, why can’t I create one?” After half a month of depression, I picked myself up and started to walk on two legs. On the one hand, I planned the number of Little Houses to recite every day, vowing 1,000 Little Houses for his creditors. On the other hand, I traveled with my husband to find a rehabilitation center to intervene. We searched for several good rehab centers in our area, but we had to wait in line for 0.5 years, 1 year, and 1.5 years. Buddha blessed us and let us find a rehab center that had just opened. The teacher had just come out of a famous center. So, we signed up on the spot. We immediately went to the rehab center to start our intervention. The night before we set up the Buddhist altar in the house we rented next to the rehab center, I had my first dream about Master Lu. He was in a tall pagoda reading totems for us. He said to me, all your difficulties are just temporary! Certainly, everything will get better. This dream gave me much confidence.
Now >2 years have passed, he is >4 years old, and he has been in kindergarten for >3 months now. The teacher’s comments on him: “When entering kindergarten he can take the initiative to greet the teacher, raising his hands in class is very active, outdoor activities he likes to cooperate with friends, he can apologize for doing something wrong, seeing someone crying he will go up to comfort. Many children say he is their closest friend. ” I was moved really to tears. Of course, from my point of view, he still has some autistic traits. But I was confident that these issues would be resolved as I repented and paid off the karmic debts. By the time he starts elementary school, Bodhisattva will surely bless him to keep up with the pace of elementary school.
In the following, I would like to discuss my understandings and lessons I have learned from practicing Buddhism in the past few years:
1. Pay off your debts and eliminate karmic obstacles during the smooth time. First of all, I came into contact with Buddhism before the onset of karmic obstacles. I am deeply grateful to the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva and practitioner Li who transformed me. Although I didn’t know much about Buddhism at the beginning, it saved me when I went through the biggest shock of my life. Like many parents of autistic children, I had thoughts of suicide. If I hadn’t stayed in front of the computer every day to read Master Lu’s blog and presentations from Buddhist practitioners, I might have done something irreversible. It was the Master and fellow practitioners who gave me great courage. Hence, any practitioners in trouble should also have this faith. Since there are so many practitioners who have created miracles through Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door, why can’t we do the same? In addition, I recited some Little Houses to myself before the outbreak of my karmic obstacles. I also insisted on releasing lives. When I started to recite Little Houses to my child, his stagnation period was shorter, approximately 300 Little Houses resulting in obvious progress. Therefore, please don’t wait until your karmic obstacles explode before practicing Buddhism. Instead, pay off your debts and eliminate karmic obstacles during smooth times.
2. I realized how heavy my karma was after practicing Buddhism. Before learning Buddhism, I always thought I was a good person who deserved a good reward. However, after learning Buddhism, I realized how heavy my karma was. My parents owned a restaurant when I was young, so my ancestors’ killing karma was already very severe. I never stopped eating chicken, ducks, and fish as a child. Furthermore, I only ate the best part of everything. In my school days, I loved to read romance novels, and then I read internet novels, so I had a very heavy sexual karma. When I was pregnant, I broke the precepts and violated the vow for the sake of my baby. My child has been punished by retribution for the wrongs I have committed. If I hadn’t studied Buddhism, I would have continued further down the wrong path. Now I know that I have to detach myself, keep the precepts, let go, learn not to create new karma, keep eliminating old karma, pay off small karmic debts, and have faith in the future even though it is very difficult now, which is the most worthwhile thing I should be doing.
3. Difficulties and adversities are contributory conditioning power. Although I encountered Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door in 2012, I didn’t practice very seriously when things were fine and well. At that time, practitioner Li who transformed me, talked to me several times about setting up a Buddhist altar and becoming a vegetarian. However, I didn’t do it because I thought it would be too difficult to do it. I didn’t dare imagine being a vegetarian forever at that time. Although I vowed to be a vegetarian 2 days a month, sometimes I forgot to do so, and this was strongly opposed by my family. However, from the time my child had pneumonia, step by step, I set up the Buddhist altar and made up my mind to be a vegetarian. Because my family strongly objected to vegetarianism before, I only vowed to be a vegetarian for 5 years for the time being. When I brought my child home in August, my family’s opposition voice was quieter than before. Now I am overcoming my introversion and lack of self-confidence. I transform sentient beings on street. Every difficulty pulls me towards the right path. Every firm step I take in Buddhism is made possible by my child. Please cherish the Buddha’s affinity that adversity brings to us.
4. The only way I can save my child is to practice Buddhism and never slack off. To learn Buddhism, we need to read more books by Master Lu, read more blogs by Master Lu, listen to more recordings by Master Lu, and watch more shared stories by fellow practitioners. The more you understand the principle of Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door, the easier it is to persevere. Although the Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door has given me many efficacious experiences, I still have doubts and have slacked 2 times in the past 2 years.
The first time I slacked off reciting Buddhist scriptures happened in 2017. At the beginning of 2016, in order to train my child well, I attended some seminars and read some books on intervention. They said that the ages between 2-6 years old are the children’s golden time. In order to achieve better results, parents must seize every moment to communicate with children and intervene. This made me skeptical about reciting Buddhist scriptures. I spent all day reciting Buddhist scriptures without much communication training with my child. Would it miss the golden training period? With this thinking in mind, I began to slack off reciting Buddhist scriptures. Consequently, my child soon regressed, forgetting the things he had learned at the rehab center. I learned from this painful experience and began to recite Buddhist scriptures diligently again, and soon he made progress again.
The second time I slacked off reciting Buddhist scriptures happened from January to April 2017. Because apart from reciting Buddhist scriptures, I also did intervention programs for my child as stated above. He had been consistently making progress. At that time, I thought that his progress was due to the treatment programs and not to my reciting the Little House. Once again, I slacked on reciting Buddhist scriptures. From January onwards, the Little House recitation almost stopped. In mid-May, we did a test, and the results were bad. Many indices were at a standstill or regressing. The test results showed he was still mildly autistic. I was very frustrated!
It was just then, I received a phone call from the Australia Oriental Media (because I had made a reservation the year before for Master Lu to read my child’s totem). Master Lu enlightened me that my child needed 1,350 Little Houses. So far, my child’s creditors received 800 Little Houses (at the time, I recited 1,300-1,400 Little Houses for his creditors). So, I needed to recite 550 more Little Houses. As a result of the test report from doctors and the enlightenment from Master Lu, I had to reconsider the relationship between Buddhist intervention and rehab interventions. I finally woke up that only Buddhism could save my child, and that all other therapies are, at the most, just icing on the cake. If taking away the root of reciting Buddhist scriptures, other treatments can only alleviate some of the child’s symptoms at best. In other words, rehab interventions will not be able to make him normal.
To date, I have repaid all of the Little Houses Master Lu has revealed to me about my son’s debts. From May to August, his change was subversive. At the end of May, during the kindergarten interview, he pooped in his pants, rolled around on the ground, and did not answer the teacher a question (I was afraid that the teacher would see that something was wrong with him, but the teacher didn’t care, which I believe it was the Buddha’s blessing)! On August 20, when the teacher visited me, he improved a lot. His behavior was very pleasant, almost normal. Additionally, he was previously found to have severe allergies to many foods that affected his intelligence. He fasted on those foods all the time. His entry into kindergarten made me very concerned. After he started kindergarten, he was no longer allergic to many foods except for a couple of them. Now, we let him eat freely. No obvious regressions or emotional problems occurred. Everything has been arranged for me by the Bodhisattva perfectly!
Now I look back on the experience of these 2 years, although I arranged him a lot of various so-called scientific treatment programs, every time he made great progress, is when I recited Buddhist scriptures very diligently, every time my child has stagnation or even regression, is when I slacked off. There were also many times when I recommended my child’s very effective scientific treatment program to my non-Buddhist friends. No one found it to be very effective when they tried it. It worked for me, but not for my non-Buddhist friends. Isn’t this Buddha’s blessing for my child? That I was able to achieve 100% or even 200% effect in every effort that I made to help my child is because of Buddha’s compassionate blessing! Dharma is the foundation!
5. Little House quality is more critical than quantity. At the beginning, to catch up with the number of Little Houses, I recited 5-7 sheets a day. The Great Compassion Mantra was reduced from 50 seconds to 45 seconds and to 35 seconds per recitation. The Heart Sutra was also reduced to about 20 seconds long per recitation. When I talked to fellow practitioners, I was complacent that I could recite more Buddhist scriptures in the same amount of time. Although some practitioners dream that my Little House quality was problematic, I have not been concerned. In May this year, when I received Master Lu’s call, I had already recited >1,300 Little Houses. However, Master Lu said that my child’s creditors had only received 800 sheets. Since then, I have taken it seriously. Later, when I checked the Buddhist scriptures, I found that I had missed words in both the Great Compassion Mantra and the Amitabha Pure Land Rebirth Mantra. I hastened to recite the Eighty-Eight Buddhas Great Repentance 27 times to repent of these wrongdoings. In fact, I found that catching up in quantity wasn’t worth the effort. Good quality Little Houses would have been more efficient.
6. Please emphasize the power of propagating the Dharma via our experiences. A while ago, I called the Australian Oriental Media. The fellow practitioner who answered the phone gave me an example after understanding my situation. A mother of a child with cerebral palsy was very diligent in helping her child recite 2,000 Little Houses. However, the child did not change much. She then stepped out onto the streets to transform people into Buddhists. She found that her child made progress every day. The practitioner of Australia Oriental Media told me to not only recite Buddhist scriptures but also transform sentient beings. Propagating the Dharma has greater merits and virtues than reciting Buddhist scriptures. In November, I began using the Internet to convince sentient beings to practice Buddhism using my experiences. It was amazing to me that my child had become more agile. All three of his teachers have given me feedback from different perspectives on how much he has improved over the past 2 weeks. Buddha is so compassionate. As long as we make a bit of effort, we will receive more rewards. I will continue to propagate Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door and use my own personal experience of Buddhism to help more sentient beings believe in Buddhism and persevere in practicing Buddhism.
Dear fellow Dharma practitioners, if you encounter the Dharma in good times, the Dharma can help you reduce or even eliminate the thorns that you may meet in the future so that your life can be smoother; if you encounter the Dharma in adversity, the Dharma can fundamentally change the adversity that you are now in; if you are uncertain, doubtful, confused in the process of practicing the Dharma, please persevere for a little while longer, and the Dharma will give you unlimited surprises.
I hope that my sharing today can give you more confidence and courage so that we can move forward on the right path together steadily.
The above is my Buddhism experiences. If there is anything that is not rational or in line with the truth in the presentation, I’d like to seek forgiveness from all Bodhisattvas.
Gratitude to the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva!
Gratitude to all Buddhas and Bodhisattvas from ten directions and three periods of time!
Gratitude to the selfless and altruistic Master Jun Hong Lu!
Gratitude to my fellow Dharma practitioners!
Buddhist practitioner: Gratitude and Namaste!
Posted: 2018-02-09
Translator: Frank
Statement by translator
The story was translated from Chinese into English by meaning, not word by word. If there is anything that is not rational or in line with the true meaning of the Chinese version, I pray for forgiveness from the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva, all Buddhas and Bodhisattvas, Dharma protectors and Master Jun Hong Lu.
Propagation
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原文如下：
自閉症的孩子真的有救，請抓住這根救命稻草！
感恩大慈大悲救苦救難廣大靈感觀世音菩薩摩訶薩！感恩十方三世諸佛菩薩！感恩龍天護法菩薩！感恩無我利他盧軍宏台長！感恩心靈法門所有師兄！
我今天為了度眾生，學習觀世音菩薩千手千眼，救度眾生，現身說法，請大慈大悲菩薩慈悲加持，保佑我將這次弘法轉化為功德。如果這次弘法之中有不如理不如法之處，請菩薩們原諒，請師兄們原諒。
今天，我滿懷著無比感恩和高興的心情在這裡向各位報喜。我的孩子在1歲8個月的時候被診斷為發育遲緩和高度疑似自閉症，3歲和3歲半時複測結果仍然為輕度自閉症。但是現在剛滿4歲的他順利進入幼兒園學習，和小朋友、老師溝通交流趨於正常，心靈法門真實不虛，把我的兒子從自閉症的深淵之中拉了出來，雖然他還有一些問題，但是我相信，只要堅持三大法寶，他就一定能完全回到正軌！
我是2012年接觸到心靈法門的，當時我懷孕意外流產了，心情很低落，這時候黎師兄來度我，她發給我看了一些資料，說了流產的危害。我雖然沒有100%相信，但我覺得念點經文反正沒壞處，所以就開始利用上下班的時間做功課並且念小房子，當時也沒有意識看《白話佛法》，也不聽師父錄音，就只是自己有空餘時間念念經，雖然一邊在念經，卻一邊不願意讓周圍朋友知道我信佛。這樣念了一段時間覺得有些效果，我二十年不癒的過敏性鼻炎明顯好轉了，就一直念經，並且每個月固定放生。
2012年年底的時候再次懷孕了。懷孕期間我有一件事情要懺悔，當時父母過來照顧我，知道我許願每月吃素兩天之後一直反對，苦口婆心勸我為了孩子不能吃素，所以孕後期和哺乳期我都違願破戒了，而且老人為了營養時不時就給我燉鴿子、燉魚吃，愚痴的我認為這樣對孩子好，所以都吃了。後來才知道違願的果報很大，我為了孩子破戒吃葷，孩子怎麼可能會好？
孩子出生回家，月子裡就發現有臍疝、血管瘤、還有腸絞痛。出了月子之後我又發現他溼疹很嚴重。100天的時候輪狀病毒腹瀉，一天拉10多次，以至於住院輸液才好，總之一直在出狀況。於是我斷斷續續又慢慢給他開始念小房子，但是念的比較少，到1歲念了幾十張。
剛過1歲，他就生了一場重病——肺炎。當時我們在老家縣城醫院住院5天輸液好了出院，3天之後復發，我們又到市裡的醫院去住院輸液10天，出院繼續吃了一週抗生素，停藥後5天又復發，這次我們到省會醫院看門診，醫生說你家孩子已經沒力氣了，很嚴重了，我給你寫說明，插隊去住院吧！我們住進醫院第一天，他每分鐘呼吸超過60次，醫生給他吸氧都沒用。護士從他大腿根部抽動脈血檢查器官有沒有因為缺氧而受影響，抽出來的動脈血是暗紅色的，醫生說，都不用去做檢測就能判斷這個血含氧量太低了。當場就把孩子轉到重症病房，並給我們開了病重通知單。
我實在沒辦法，給黎師兄打了電話求助。她立即就答應第二天一早幫我去放生，讓我許大願，我走到醫院走廊上，邊流淚邊向菩薩媽媽許願：
1，一個月內助印經書1000本；
2，我終生每個月為他放生；
3，許願半年內為他念小房子100張；
4，吃素一年；
5，等他病好了現身說法。
許好願之後走回病房就聽到護士說他的呼吸降到了每分鐘30次左右，這樣可以不用插呼吸機了，只是繼續吸氧並且觀察就可以了。菩薩媽媽聽到了我的祈求，顯靈了！晚上我不敢懈怠，一直不停地為他念《大悲咒》，直到第二天早上他一直都沒有醒。等到黎師兄和幾位熱心的同修給我打電話，說已經在放生了，讓我也念經。我按照放生儀軌念完之後半小時之內，孩子就醒過來了吃了蘋果和粥，然後就很精神的爬起來了。
前一天晚上因為孩子情況很不好，我一邊哭一邊打電話告知了孩子他爸，他爸早上坐第一班飛機趕過來，看到孩子精神很好地吃飯，一臉疑惑問我說，孩子不挺好的嘛，幹嘛要他回來？他沒有經歷那驚心動魄的十幾個小時，幾乎不能理解我當時的崩潰和無助。後來孩子的檢測報告，除了抽血當天就出的心臟報告顯示有心臟損傷之外，其他器官都顯示無異常。孩子第二天開始神奇的康復，連醫生都感到非常吃驚，如果不是肺炎治療期最少是7天，我們都可以提前出院。就這樣，他在菩薩媽媽的慈悲下順利康復了，我以為之後一切就會順利了，沒想到更大的困難還在後面等著我。
2015年4月份，他1歲半的時候，我發現他的智力發育明顯比其他孩子要慢得多，叫他也不怎麼理，而且他想要什麼東西的時候如果不馬上滿足的話他就用頭撞牆，我就在網上搜索撞頭是什麼問題，看到一篇文章說撞頭是自閉症的表現之一，點進去一看，裡面說的症狀好多都符合，當時我就嚇得不行，我給他爸說了，爸爸剛開始說我是亂擔心，他自己也百度了一下，也就不說話了。我們立即約了醫院去看。
2015年5月4日，當時我們去了復旦兒童醫學中心兒保科，測試結果他的智力只有8個月，發育遲緩1歲，高度疑似自閉症。當時那個醫生說了一句話，我至今都記憶猶新，她說：“這孩子以後不會有什麼出息了，你們家長做好心理準備。” 我當場眼淚就下來了，我的孩子才1歲半，怎麼未來一輩子的路就能這樣被判定了呢？
我不甘心，就在網上查資料，越查越絕望。那個時候真的覺得沒法活了，在路上隨便看到一個小孩子就會痛哭流涕。然後我就不查資料了，每天登陸盧台長的部落格看台長開示和同修分享，一篇一篇反覆讀，然後我對自己說：“沒關係的，我還有佛法，這麼多同修通過佛法都創造了奇蹟，為什麼我不能創造一個？” 這樣消沉了半個多月之後，我重新振作起來，開始兩條腿走路，一方面每天開始訂小房子的數量計劃，許願小房子1000張，另一方面和爸爸一起去找機構進行干預。我們找了當地比較好的機構，都要排隊半年、一年、一年半，也是菩薩保佑，竟然讓我們找到一家剛開張的機構，機構的老師是從很有名的機構出來剛開的，當場我們就報名了。於是很快就開始去機構開始干預。並且在機構旁邊租的房子裡設了佛台，在設佛台的前一天晚上，我第一次夢到了盧台長，他在一個很高的塔裡給大家看圖騰，他對我說：你現在所有的困難都是暫時的！一定都會好起來的。這個夢給了我巨大的信心。
如今兩年多過去了，孩子目前4歲多，上幼兒園三個多月，看到老師的對孩子的評語：“入園時能主動和老師打招呼，上課舉手非常積極，戶外運動喜歡和朋友合作，做錯了事情可以道歉，看到有人哭會上去安慰，很多小朋友都說你是他們的好朋友。” 我真的是熱淚盈眶。當然，從我的角度看他還存在一些自閉症的特質。但我也堅信這些問題一定會隨著我的懺悔和還債慢慢解決。等到孩子讀小學的時候，菩薩一定會讓他的水平跟上小學的節奏的。
下面我想主要談一談這幾年來我對學佛的領悟和教訓：
1、首先，我在業障爆發前就接觸了佛法，對這個情況我深深的感恩大慈大悲觀世音菩薩和度我的黎師兄。雖然剛開始對佛法瞭解不深，但是在我經受這個人生最大的打擊的時候，是佛法救了我。我也和很多自閉症孩子家長一樣有過輕生的念頭，如果不是當時每天守在電腦前看台長博客和同修分享，也許我已經做出了一些難以挽回的事情。是台長和同修給了我莫大的勇氣。其他的正在困境中的師兄們也應該有這個信念。如果已經有這麼多的師兄通過心靈法門創造了奇蹟，為什麼你不能也創造一個？另外因為我在業障爆發前之前給自己念過一些小房子，也一直堅持放生，當我開始大量給孩子念小房子之後，孩子停滯期比較短，大概300張小房子之後就開始看到進步了。所以請各位師兄不要等到業障爆發了才發心修佛，在平順的時期也要多多還債消業障。
2、學佛之後才知道自己孽障深重。在學佛前，我一直覺得自己是一個好人，應該要得到好報。但是學佛之後才知道自己孽障有多重。我的爸爸媽媽在年輕的時候開過飯店，殺業就已經很重了，我從小雞鴨魚肉從來沒有斷過，而且吃每樣東西只吃最好吃的部分。讀書之後就愛看言情小說，後來看網路小說，邪淫也非常重。懷孕的時候為了孩子還破戒違願。做了這麼多的錯事，現在都報在孩子身上。若不是學佛，我還會在歧路上越走越遠。現在知道要斷舍離，要持戒，要放下，學佛了慢慢學會不造新業，不斷消舊業，還債小孽障，即使現在很困難也對未來充滿信心，這是再好不過的事情了。
3、困難和逆境是我們的增上緣。我雖然從2012年開始接觸佛法，但是在平順的時候並沒有修得很認真，當時度我的黎同修數次和我談到設佛台和吃素的問題，我都覺得困難太大了而沒有做，那時候簡直不敢想像自己能夠吃全素。後來許願每月吃兩天素有的時候也會忘記，而且也遭到了家人的強烈反對。但是從孩子生肺炎開始，一步一步，讓我設了佛台，還有下定決心吃全素，因為之前吃素家人強烈反對，所以我暫時只許了吃素5年。不過8月份帶孩子回家的時候家人反對的聲音已經比之前好了很多。現在我又克服自己內向和不自信的性格缺點，走出來度人，每一次困難都在一步一步把我往正確的路上拉，我在佛法上每一個堅定的腳步都是孩子促成的。請大家要珍惜逆境帶給我們的佛緣。
4、學佛要多看書，多看博客（部落格），多聽錄音，多看同修分享。瞭解透徹越多更容易堅持。雖然佛法已經給了我很多靈驗的事情，但是在為孩子大量念小房子的兩年多時間裡，我仍然有懷疑和懈怠。
第一次是在2016年初的時候，我們剛從機構回家，為了干預孩子，我參加了一些講座，也看了一些干預的書籍，它們說孩子2-6歲時黃金期，一定要抓緊每分每秒和孩子溝通干預，這樣才能取得比較好的效果。這讓我對念經產生了疑慮。我整天地把時間花在念經上，並沒有和孩子進行多少溝通訓練，這樣會耽誤他嗎？在這種思維下，我開始懈怠了。而孩子很快就開始倒退，原本在機構已經學會的東西又忘記了。我痛定思痛，又開始重新精進唸經，很快孩子又開始再次開始進步了。
第二次懈怠是2017年1-4月份，因為除了念經，我還給孩子做了一些其他的干預治療方案，而且我家孩子一直持續在進步，當時我認為孩子的進步是其他治療方案帶來的，而不是念小房子。再一次對念經產生了懈怠。從1月份開始給孩子念小房子的事情幾乎停滯了，到了5月中旬，我們再次做了一次測試，結果很不好，很多專案和半年前相比是停滯或者是倒退，測試結果還是輕度自閉症。當時我非常沮喪！
正在這個時候，我接到了東方臺的電話（因為前一年預約上了東方台盧台長的看圖騰，剛好在這個時候東方台回電了），台長說我的孩子需要小房子1350張，孩子身上要經者收到了800張（當時我念了有1300-1400張的樣子），還需要550張。檢測報告和東方台的電話讓我重新思考了學佛干預和其他干預手段之間的關係，終於讓我領悟了，只有佛法可以救孩子，其他所有的療法充其量只會是錦上添花。如果抽掉了念經這個根本，其他的治療方式效果最好也只能減輕孩子的一些症狀，並不能從根本上讓孩子正常。
一直到現在我把盧台長開示小房子數量全部燒完。從5月開始到8月孩子的變化是顛覆性的。5月底幼兒園面試，當天孩子在面試現場把大便拉在褲子裡，在地上滾來滾去，沒有回答老師一個問題！我就怕老師看出來他不對勁，但是老師沒在意，我相信這也是菩薩的庇佑。8月 20日老師來家訪的時候，他已經進步了很多很多，表現非常好，幾乎和正常沒什麼區別。之前他查出來有很多食物過敏嚴重到影響了智力，我們一直在禁食，進幼兒園的時候我也非常擔心，但是在上幼兒園之前我們再去醫院做檢測，他已經不屬於過敏體質，除了個別專案之外已經全部都不過敏了，現在我們也給孩子放開吃飯，也沒有出現明顯的倒退和情緒問題。真的所有的事情菩薩都為我安排到了最好！
現在我回想這兩年多的經歷，雖然我給孩子做了很多各種各樣的其他所謂科學的治療方案，但是每一次孩子進步很大的時候，都是我念經非常精進的時候，每一次孩子有停滯甚至倒退的時候，都是我有懈怠的時候。還有很多次我把我家孩子效果很不錯的科學治療方案推薦給沒學佛的朋友，但是別人嘗試下來都覺得沒什麼大作用。我試有效，不學佛的朋友試沒效，這難道不是菩薩在加持我的孩子嗎？菩薩慈悲護持，讓我在為孩子做的每一項嘗試上都達到了100%甚至200%的效果！佛法才是根本呀！
5、小房子的質量比數量更重要。我剛開始的時候為了趕數量每天念5-7張小房子，《大悲咒》從一遍50秒變成一遍45秒變成一遍35秒，心經也是20秒左右。和別的師兄交流的時候還為自己能在相同的時間內念更多的經文沾沾自喜。之前也有師兄有做夢感應說我的小房子質量不好，但是我一直沒放在心上；今年5月接到東方台電話的時候，當時我已經至少唸了1300張小房子了，但是台長說只收到了800張，我才重視起來。後來和經文對照發現我念得太熟之後《大悲咒》和《往生咒》都有漏字的情況。我趕緊為這個事情念了《禮佛大懺悔文》27遍。其實發現趕量的方式有的時候得不償失。如果我的小房子質量都很好的話，其實效率更高。
6、請重視度人和現身說法的力量。前段時間我打電話到東方台，接電話的師兄在瞭解我的情況之後跟我講了一個事例。一位腦癱孩子的媽媽非常精進地幫孩子念了2000張小房子之後孩子沒什麼變化。她後來走到街上度人，回家後發現孩子每天都有進步。東方台師兄讓我不僅僅要念經，也要度人，弘法的功德比念經更大。我從今年11月起在網上現身說法，之後真的發現孩子又變得更機靈一點了。他的三位老師從不同的角度都向我反饋了他這兩週進步巨大。菩薩是多麼慈悲呀，只要我們多一點的努力，就給我們多一點的回報，我一定繼續現身說法，用自己的親身經歷幫助更多的人能夠相信，堅持學佛。
所以各位親愛的師兄，如果你在順境中接觸了佛法，佛法能夠幫助你將未來日子中可能遇到的荊棘減輕甚至消除，讓你的生活能夠更加平順；如果你在逆境中接觸了佛法，佛法能夠從根本上改變你現在所處的逆境；如果你在學佛的過程中有出現彷徨、懷疑、困惑，請再堅持一下，佛法會給我們無限驚喜。
希望我今天的分享能夠給各位更多的信心和勇氣，讓我們一起在正確的道路上堅強前行。
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感恩合十
2018-02-09
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